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[29 Jan 2006|01:10am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

I got contact lenses today, whoohoo! I suck at taking them out though. I went to Best Buy and purchased a CD. Paul came over and we walked to Hollywood Video and rented The Fog and American History X. While walking home, my cousin and his friends in a car saw us, slowed down and honked. They stopped somewhere and Otis, my cousin, and Alica got out of the car to say hi to Paul and I. I was about ready to flick off the car before we found out who it was. We parted, and Paul and I continued to walk home. Paul said "I smell weed" and right at that moment, a black guy on his bike passed by and stopped in front of us. I started cracking up, but the guy offered Paul a hit, I think. We got home and saw The Fog. Don't ever see this movie because it sucks major ass, and I knew it would, but it somehow managed to be more horrible than I ever imagined.

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My cojones! [29 Dec 2005|03:25pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

My sister is a huge bitch. She wouldn't leave my room, so I playfully spray her with TAG. What does she do? She punches me in the nuts really hard. She ran out onto the driveway, where I proceeded to throw a my TAG container(hit her) "secret object"(unfortnately I missed), a cup(missed that one too, damn!), and a spoon(got her that time). My aim apparently sucks after a sucker punch to the boys. I locked that cunt outside and ripped off her bedsheets and pillows and threw them on the floor, and then knocked over shit on her desk. I threw a fucking tantrum, and I haven't done that shit in the longest time.

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[06 Dec 2005|09:58pm]
[ mood | shocked ]

I saw the aftermath of two car accidents today. The first was when I was going home from school. My dad gasped and I looked, and these two old people were sitting in their nice car. Except..the car was on top of a bus stop bench, which was on the sidewalk. Somehow, no one got hurt, so I'm assuming that no one was sitting on the bench, which is crazy because that bus stop usually has about 10 people waiting there everyday. It was crazy, to see two old people sitting in their car, which is about 3 feet pointed up in the air because they drove over a bench on the sidewalk. The second car accident was later on in the evening when I was going home from K-mart. An SUV was totalled, and on its side with people still inside. This leads me to my big conclusion. I am in no rush to drive anymore, not while I'm in fucking Florida at least.


Your destiny if you life in south Florida and drive.

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[26 Nov 2005|11:30pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Spraying Tag in my sisters face is a very entertaining thing to do. For serious, she starts to gag, choke, and scream. I've fallen head over heels for Mario Kart DS. My PSP is a fucking paperweight right now, because the DS is hot shit. I had Lo Mein for dinner yesterday night, and it's gotta be the best thing ever invented.

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Reverse Brainwashing [14 Oct 2005|01:28pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]

Sometimes when something goes wrong, I subconsiously blurt out, or think, "please god" or "help me god." It means nothing of course, because I don't stand by these words or believe in them. I was 100% sure I wasn't affected at all by 10 years of Catholocism taught to me, but apparently I was wrong. It's like brainwashing. Since I was young, I was taught to ask for the help of "god" if I needed help. Why the hell didn't they teach me to look within myself for inner strength? It's pathetic that those with "faith" automatically turn to "god" in times of despair, and they can't search within themselves to find a way to deal with a crisis or something of the sort. I can survive and I don't need the help of "god", but it's still fucked up that I still ask for his help when I don't even want/need it. It's fucking instilled inside my brain like a disease, and I hate it.

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[01 Oct 2005|05:57pm]
I got my Skinny Puppy DVD tuesday, and I'm watching it for the 3rd time right now. I FUCKING love them.

Everyone should love sir Brady.

Walkinthedark: ..I was humped by a dog once. I was 6. it may have been my first sexual experience.
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Dope Stars Inc. CD! [31 Aug 2005|04:17pm]
[ mood | content ]

w00t! I got my Dope Stars Inc. digi-pack in today. It came with a poster of Grace, an awesome CD booklet with original artwork from Grace, and a sticker. My CD was also signed by all the members too! The music is so fucking orgasmic. 2 discs, filled with awesome industrial rock.

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Hisssss!!!!! [29 Aug 2005|07:17pm]
[ mood | mellow ]

Today during 5th hour, I walked up to the teachers podium to staple my homework. Exciting, I know. Anyway, on my way up, some girl was walking next to me, and the next thing I know, I hear "Hissssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!" I look over at her, and she's all up in my grill hissing at me. I didn't know how to react, so I just smiled and turned around to staple my paper. Now I think she did it for sheer fun, and didn't do it with malice, but my question for you is, How would you of reacted? Oh yeah, today was one of the worst days of school. The damn air conditioner was broken. When it's hotter inside than outside in the Florida sun+humidity, you know the situation is completely fucked.

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OMFG I'm so happy. [20 Aug 2005|05:50pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Where do I start? Well, MSI is playing Revolution, and I'm fucking stoked about that. I need to figure out how I'm going to get there, but I'll work magic and make it happen. The Bauhaus reunited and are touring!!!! My dad is considering either taking me to Orlando so I can see them, or accompanying me too see them in Pompano. Seeing the Bauhaus would be out of this world mind blowing. Last night was awesome. I went to see Red Eye with Paul and Donna, and I thought it was pretty damn good movie. After that, we went to Walmart Super Center for some midnight shopping. Donna beat me with a foot long pepperoni and then hit Paul. Paul grabbed a pepperoni as well and then chased her with a Snapple in his hand around the food section. Donna disappeared and then popped out of no where with 2 cans of air fresheners ready and aimed for Paul. They stopped before we were kicked out though. Today, my dad took me to Borders and bought me two books, yay. I got The Shining, and A Clockwork Orange.

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[11 Aug 2005|04:33pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I have a Chemistry test tomorrow. I have to memorize 70 elements from the periodic table. This is going to be the "easy as 123, ABC's" test as well......EEK! I talked to my teacher, and he told me to see how well I do on the test, and if I don't do so hot, he'll bump me down to regular. Either way I'm fucked. If I study hard and do well, I'll have to study harder and harder as the year goes on just to do okay. Then there's the option of me bombing the test and feeling down so I can go to regular. I also don't know how I'm an overacheiver as I was called today. I have 4 honors classes, OMFG! Not a big deal except for Chemistry. If I feel something is within my ability to achieve, then I'll go for it. I don't want to run away from every challenge in life, but I also realize when I need to accept defeat. If working at a comfortable pace is overachieving then someone better correct the dictionary.

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School already sucks, and all I have to say is "Fuck Everyone!" [08 Aug 2005|09:57pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

I don't want school to start! School starts Wednesday and I already think it sucks. I get to eat lunch alone for the rest of the year! I so badly wished I could have the same lunch with Donna and Paul......oh well, I guess I'll start reading and I'll do my homework during lunch. I'm already dreading the amount of new freshman mall-punk/goth/nu-metal kids. If I were mean, I'd step on their stupid bondage straps, and hook up their hardxcore chains and stuff to chairs and tables when they sit down. Alright, the most valid reason for why I'm in a bitchy mood is having to wake up at 5:55 a.m.

Fuck: Blink 182, My Chemical Romance, KoRn, Cradle of Filth, Marylin Manson, ICP, Slipknot, Linkin Park, Good Charlotte and many more because I will see an abundance of their shitty shirts while I'm walking around campus.

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Music Makes You Lose Control [06 Aug 2005|06:28am]
[ mood | mellow ]

So I went to Donna's house along with Paul, and it was a very fun night. We went to Pizza Hut, and ate until we nearly died, then went back to Donna's. Paul decided he wanted to do karaoke, so he sung along to Duran Duran. Paul got his groove on to that Ciara song, and I still have the horrid memories of him "backing that thing up." I downloaded the new Missy song on Donna's computer, and Paul and Donna demonstrated how they could have sex to the song while dancing at the same time(not on each other). My dad drove me home drunk.....so he missed the turn to enter into our neighborhood, and then we had to keep driving, turn back, and then he almost turned too soon into a wrong neighborhood.....almost hitting a guy on a bike. Don't worry, he drove home in style! I put David Bowie on, so I guess he was swirving to the beat?

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[01 Aug 2005|05:37am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Some bits of my conversation with The Brady.

ApathyFiend09: I'll check it out
CultusFiend: you better
CultusFiend: or ill call joyce and tell her you're stealing her panties
CultusFiend: AND wearing them
ApathyFiend09: :\
ApathyFiend09: wtf
ApathyFiend09: how did you know?!
CultusFiend: because
CultusFiend: im that cool
ApathyFiend09: I just needed some thongs


ApathyFiend09: *shakes head*
CultusFiend: *shakes fist*
ApathyFiend09: *screams like infant*
CultusFiend: *slaps brady*
ApathyFiend09: *beats the unholy shit out of a potato*
CultusFiend: eew
CultusFiend: you beated off with a potato?
CultusFiend: wtf?
ApathyFiend09: its true


ApathyFiend09: I want some speed techno
CultusFiend: no
CultusFiend: you want fat joe
ApathyFiend09: omg
ApathyFiend09: I dont
CultusFiend: you do
CultusFiend: admit it
CultusFiend: his rolls make you jizz yo pants
ApathyFiend09: he'd be the worst fisting partner EVER
CultusFiend: you're into fisting?
CultusFiend: thats hot

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[29 Jul 2005|05:03am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Watch this orgasmic video! Not everyone can say they've seen the Puppy perform, but I can, and I shall wear my tour shirt until it's all old and filled with holes. I can't wait for the live DVD to come out.

http://www.spv.de/ra/skinny-dvd.ram

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HOLY FUCK [22 Jul 2005|11:34am]
[ mood | excited ]

Holy fuck, holy fuck, holy fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!

Glenn Danzig has announced plans for the 2005 Blackest of the Black Tour. The tour will include headliners Danzig, as well as hardcore and black metal acts including Chimaira, Behemoth, Himsa, Mortiis (ex-Emperor), and The Agony Scene.

Of some note is that each stop on the tour will feature a 30-minute Misfits set with Doyle von Frankenstein, Doyle previously joined Glenn for similar sets last fall.

October 22, 2005
Fl - Ft. Lauderdale, Revolution

I can not/will not miss this!!!!!!

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[21 Jul 2005|06:51pm]
Rules:

1. I list five songs I'm currently playing the fuck out of.

01. Bauhaus - She's In Parties
02. Aphex Twin - Come to Daddy
03. Cursive - Some Red Handed Sleight of Hand
04. David Bowie (feat. Queen) - Under Pressure
05. Atari Teenage Riot - Delete Yourself

2. I then tag five people to do the same thing, who then fill out the meme in their own journal & tag five people of their own.

Tag! You're it: brady09, iheartbrody, snoozertil2, wont_be_sedated, tsp_gatmog
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[20 Jul 2005|02:57am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

I suck at cooking so damn much. I tried to make pancakes earlier, and they tasted like chalk! It might of been the instant pancake mix where you just add water, so next time I attempt making pancakes, I'll make the real shit. I just drank 64 oz. of coffee! I saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory twice already. Pretty damn good movie, but I definately like the 1971 adaptation of the book better, it's much more darker. I do like that it kept me smiling a lot though. Yes sir! I'm dancing in my chair right now to Aphex Twin, there isn't any other proper way to stay up all night than dance in your chair to great music.

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[11 Jul 2005|06:14pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Oh look! Here comes an introspective journal entry! I think....

I know how lame this sounds, but after watching War of the Worlds, I got to thinking. If mass hysteria were to happen, I fear what might happen to me and my loved ones. However, I might fear the way society and other individuals react. When such frightening things happen, I guess some primitave instinct kicks in telling you to care for yourself, and anyone very close to you and ignore everyone else. When people start to think this way, they can sometimes cause more trouble, pain, and destruction than the actual cause of the problem. I thought those were my only two fears if such a thing were to happen, but I was wrong. Then I began to think of something else I might be afraid of...me turning into that apathetic individual who puts his life over others. I don't ever want to be so apathetic causing me to not care about others who are in trouble and need help. So there you go, if the world seems like it's going to end, those are my top 3 fears. Which of those things I'm most afraid of is unknown to me.

On another note, I got some pretty kick ass shirts from Sam Goody at the mall not too long ago. I got an interpol shirt for only $13(http://www.hottopic.com/store/product.asp?LS=0&ITEM=192662) and a neat-o Misfits shirt I haven't seen before for guess what? only $13 as well!I can't seem to find a picture of the particular Misfits shirt I have, but it has a girl screaming with skulls in her eyes, and her hands on the sides of her face, except her hands are bones. Also, my parents got me this really cool grim reaper statue from Mexico, all made of real bone. It's cow bone I think, just so anyone doesn't think I'm some kind of freak.

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[07 Jul 2005|11:01pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I bought Cursive - The Ugly Organ and Alkaline Trio - Crimson. Both CD's are rather awesome. I bought Twisted Metal: Head On today, so now I have like $4 left in my wallet with some change. Twisted Metal is tons of fun, but I suck at it, and I haven't played it more than 10 minutes yet. Texas is so damn hot, like, really really hot. It's not humid hot either, its like 105 degrees, and really dry. I went into the pool Sunday and today and got sunburn for the first time ever when I went in Sunday. My skin is still peeling, and I feel really white now. Um......when I left for Texas, I almost cried. I was like on the verge with my eyes all watered and shizzle because I had to leave Precious. :( I love my little doggy and I miss her a lot. So Paul, here is your mission. Go to my house, get precious and her dog food, and bring her over here to Texas. Deal with it when she bites you, because I need my Precious!

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[30 Jun 2005|07:29am]
[ mood | anxious ]

Well, I go off to Texas today for 2 weeks. I'm pretty excited, except that we chose to leave my little Precious here. My cousin is going to take care of her. I'm really gonna miss her and I hope my Precious doesn't become depressed or anything. Before I leave, I must clean my room and the house and wash the remainder of my clothes that I didn't already wash. I'm all packed and ready to go. I'm extremely jealous of Paul and Donna because they get to see Alkaline Trio, Rise Against, and Death by Stereo. I enjoy all of these bands, and the only time during the summer any actual good bands come down here to FL, I'll be in Texas. Well, I'm really hoping we buy lots of fireworks in TX and we drive out of town and light them on some random property.

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